ascent into madness . Lyrics

Issues with my esteem since I was a little dude

Elementary I hated my life, I felt like I was ridiculed

Popular for all the wrong reasons back in middle school

Only black kid they treated my hair like a petting zoo

Felt like the only kid there that the girls didn't choose

High school got the confidence to do things I didn't do

Had some setbacks here and there but thank God that I didn't lose

Grandad was a star in his country, now I'm the guy he's living through

I'ma die or I'll win and God told me I'll be living proof

Only time I feel like I'm complete is when I'm in the booth

You couldn't even walk a mile

Or a step in my shoes

Ahhh, what you trying get into

What you trying get into

Growing pains since a jit, mama I ain't been cool

Out with the old, lil bro, yeah I been knew

Ascending into madness, yeah Beezy who goin fix you

Who goin fix you, Beezy who goin fix you

All those issues, Beezy who can fix you

All those issues, God can He fix you

All those issues, Beezy who goin fix you

*cough, cough* okay

I've been ascending into madness

I've been ascending into madness

I've been ascending into madness

I've been ascending into madness

I cannot even mask it, all the cameras flashing (haha, they don't care)

Head hurting, sirens passing I might need an aspirin

That's my uuhhh

That's my prideful self

I've been (Zay don't hang up on me please) all by myself

God how you goin give me life inside this hell

God how you goin let my grandad die and not revive his health

How you goin leave my brother on the streets when he prays for help (help)

That's why I needuh get rich to get my people well

We all goin be okay goin get it under my belt

Final lvl when I get LV on the belt

And to my grandma, to my momma, to my father, to my brother

I've had self-hatred and thoughts of dying ever since I was younger

And that's the reason I have this infatuation with finding a woman

I need someone else other than myself for me to feel some

I've been ascending into madness

I've been ascending into madness

I've been ascending into madness

I've been ascending into madness (I hate you so much)

I cannot even mask it, all the cameras flashing (haha, they don't care)

Head hurting, sirens passing I might need an aspirin

(I hate you so much I hate you so much I hate you so much I hate you so much I hate you so much)

(Madness… the state of being mentally ill, especially severely

Ascent. Into. Madness)

I got voices in my head

I think they just want me dead

I got voices in my head

I think they just want me dead

I got voices in my head

Why am I still seeing red

I got voices in my head

But they not going get me dead

My madness makes me, me

I ain't mad at it

My brother tripped out on me but I can't be mad at him

Told pops I'm a street scholar I'm not a college kid

I stay one hundred degrees don't need a degree to accomplish this

Can't accommodate for no lames, I don't need no awkward fits

You going say a eulogy at my funeral before I call it quits

Before I call it quits

Hold on but don't stop the clock, I'ma ball real quick

Lehgetit

Ascent into madness