Scars ft. Madeleine Liljestam Lyrics

You talk about issues?

I guess I got a few

You really wanna listen?

Okay, gimme a minute or two

You know about anxiety?

'Cause I sure do

Or should we start with abandonment?

That's a good one, too

You're getting close to someone

Finally start to open up

But you're scared everyday and

All you really wanna do is shut

The door you opened to 'em

Get away before they hurt you

If you're already alone

Then there's nobody to desert you

Now logically you know

That this person isn't the last one

And you know that what you're feeling

Is just trauma from a past love

But you can't shake the feeling

That they will do you the same

And you'll have to live through the losses over again

So at the first sign of struggle

Fight or flight just starts to kick in

It hits you in your chest

Feels like your heart just really caves in

The adrenaline starts to pump

The sweat's already drippin'

You feel it in the pit of your stomach

That feeling is so sickening

How can you have a relationship

When you can't trust another being?

How can you start a family

With somebody that ain't seeing

The fact that they will leave you

When they see this side of you

If you don't flee first, that is

And then that is on you

Oooh

The scars I bear in my mind

Oooh

Makes it hard to survive

Wait, what was that first one?

Oh yeah, I remember now

Anxiety, your closest friend

He's been with you forever now

You grow up with one another

You two even share a room now

And guess who is the bigger spoon?

It sure as shit ain't you now

See, you can have a perfect day

Where everything is going great

And then just like that

Everything just starts to disintegrate

For no apparent reason

But the heartbeat's in your ears

And the room starts to spin

And all you're hearing is your fears

They're laughing at you loudly

And look, here come the tears

You're gonna have a black out again?

Maybe down a couple beers?

But you know that it don't help, right?

Drinking makes it worse

Even though you feel like it's impossible that it can hurt

It can't get any worse, right?

Well, I saved the best one for last

I think he's coming up the driveway

He's always going fast

But yeah, he's pulling up now

Let me get the door

And show you the only thing

That we both fear even more

Oooh

The scars I bear in my mind

Oooh

Makes it hard to survive

Let me introduce you

This here is depression

He's just a result

Of every feeling you're suppressin'

Everything you lock inside?

This guy make sure it stays in

So he can feed from everything

Every feeling that you bring

He sits there and takes his time

And when it's right he stops by

And when he's here you'll know it

There's not a second then that goes by

Without his intervention

He'll bleed you 'till you feel dry

Sometimes even literally

You know them scars you try to hide?

It may have been your hand

That held the razor or the sharp knife

But he's the one laughing from the back

In the shadows behind

He's the ugly face you see

In the mirror every time

And he's the voice inside your mind

That feeds you all the lies

That makes you feel so worthless

All the nights where you just cried

And every sunny morning

Where you wished that you just died

Peacefully in your sleep

He's the one behind it all

He's not your best friend

He's the reason that you always fall

I know he keeps a tight grip

But trust me, that's not love

He's a culmination of everything I said above

Abandonment, anxiety, doubt

And so much more

He is everything combined

That beat you down unto the floor

Look at you, laying there

Sobbing uncontrollably

When all these dark feelings

Are robbing you emotionally

I'm sorry that you have to

Go through this all on your own

But then again, with these guys with you

You'll never be alone

Oooh

The scars I bear makes it hard

Oooh

Makes it hard to survive