If I Should Die Lyrics

Oooooohh Oooohhhh

Time

Yeah yeah

What a wonderful thing

If I should die

If I should die

I wish to sing you a song

Break down and let you know who I was all along

Thanks to everyone for putting up with me

I've made my share of mistakes in this life that I lead

So what if I try too hard

I just wanna be loved

I had my questions and doubts

When I looked up above

But I know you exist

Why would you abandon me

I never saw your face but there were times when you touched me

I can't wait to see you but I feel now is not the time

I need to prevail and conquer what's mine

But if you feel you need to take me I suggest that you do so

For now I shall fight all my battles on my own

There's too much work to do

I can sleep when I'm dead

Get rid of this alcohol that's eating my head

I want to be as close to perfect as I can be

Capture serenity and leave this world complete

And I'll never be a star

Mother fuck the fame

At least I know it in my heart

Cause I'll never be the same

I just visualized my unborn child's eyes

So I sacrifice to give him a better life

I just want to see redemption cause I ain't never been happy

I hide from this world cause I don't think they understand me

They'll never figure out as hard as I fight

I guess they'll hear it through the air of the night

If I should die

I thank the Lord above for helping me til this day

So many things to do in life

So many words to say

And I forbid if anything should happen to me

And if I should die

So much to live for and my life is incomplete

So much corruption that you can't defeat

And it's the world that really makes you think sometimes

And if I should die

As I close my eyes and later I see images coming slowly

Photographic memories of me being a little shorty

Talk about Mr. Ignorant, Mr. No Morals

Live for today and I was like fuck tomorrow

I ain't gon lie I scarred so many females

Innocent to crazy ladies

It gets fatal

When a girl talks about suicide

Saying if she can't have me then she'd rather die

So I hold her to her words and I hold her tight

And I told her baby girl I ain't worth your life

Cause if it was meant to be you'd be my wife

But you can't solve situations by ending your life

If only destiny answers to all questions

Then I'd leave this damn world in a few seconds

That's not what God intended

I'm here for a reason

Cause so many have died

And I'm still breathing

But then again you can't predict fate

Cause when it's your time to go there's no escape

I thank the Lord for getting my father through surgery

That was the most critical point of my life

That really hurted me

I was on both knees begging for forgiveness

I asked God to take my life instead of his

Crucial moments like this is what makes you say why or wonder

If I should die

I thank the Lord above for helping me til this day

So many things to do in life

So many words to say

And I forbid if anything should happen to me

And if I should die

So much to live for and my life is incomplete

So much corruption that you can't defeat

And it's the world that really makes you think sometimes

And if I should die

On 6/25/84 I was brought to earth

My parents named me Cheng Yang on the day of my birth

My moms almost got deceased when she had me

But she stayed strong and fought and fought and she recovered it

That's why my aunts and uncles they said I was the chosen one

I feel blessed finding out I was the lucky one

The third oldest son

That'll do anything for them when they get older

At the age of six a lady tried to poison me

She poured Mr. Clean in my milk to see if I would collapse but I didn't

You know who you are

I told my parents and you got the bitchin

Five years later

The best time of my life

Became a naughty boy but everything was still tight

A group of boys and girls taking the bus to Jackson Park

Walking around the city till it's dark

At the age of seventeen the worst time of my life

Somebody very special left me and my family behind

I looked up to him

He was my idol

I see my mom cry every night, even I cried sometimes

And now that I'm at the age of 20 I gotta stay strong

Hoping nothing bad won't go wrong

And I'm always looking positive

But there ain't nothing much you can do

If I should die

I thank the Lord above for helping me til this day

So many things to do in life

So many words to say

And I forbid if anything should happen to me

If I should die

So much to live for and my life is incomplete

So much corruption that you can't defeat

And it's the world that really makes you think sometimes

And if I should die

If I should die yeah