Martyrdom Lyrics

I've been away again

I've lost so many friends, I'm struggling with faith again

They make it easy to let go and never make amends

Sometimes I wanna lose control and really take revenge

Sometimes I'm worried bout my health more

Than dreams I know I'd kill for

If I'm the dream, that's suicide

And that ain't what I'm built for

But I know I ain't new to pride

An answer they ask who am I

I needed that shit to survive

Invested in myself more

And I ain't got no shame to admit it

Some losses felt like a bullet

When you trust people with triggers

You don't expect em to pull it

I fell so deep into depression

I'd panic and a shed a tear

For all the people that's just like me that wanna live to their fullest

But stuck in cycle, clawing for answers inside a Bible

Then feel like they don't deserve to be heard and days are recycled, I

Heard so many times that they love me and we some ride or dies

And I ain't ever choose to die, so somebody tell me why

I fell off the world and no one noticed

Try to reach my phone, it's out of focus

I don't reach out, it's pitiful to get fake love

I know how to be alone

This is what I came from

Tell if you found a cure for sadness would you take one

Or would you keep on risking your life just to save one

Martyrdom

I give to my life to the things I love

You'd think if I gave a piece of my heart, I'd have peace enough

You try to see the future then you live backwards

Evil does shit to actors in Hollywood

So why you think your hometown miss those factors

No more questions on why my circle stay changing up

I don't see in black and white, and every colors dangerous

I'm Craig, these niggas angel dust

They push me to my limits, key in Khaled this a major plus

My subtle art, I gave no fucks

No score on what they take from us

I pray for love, they pay for lust

And post on instagram a different person

Than who they gave to us

So never mistake your lovin' as fake some people just to hate to love

You always can walk away, my nigga you face enough

I've been learning that life is waves and I'm surfing

Sometimes I'm broken and hurting

Sometimes i'm hoping and working

I tried to just force myself to be happy, it never helped

So right now, I just gotta keep it real with myself like

I fell off the world and no one noticed

Try to reach my phone, it's out of focus

I don't reach out, it's pitiful to get fake love

I know how to be alone

This is what I came from

Tell if you found a cure for sadness would you take one

Or would you keep on risking your life just to save one

Martyrdom

Da-da-da-dum

Da-da-da-dum

Martyrdom

Da-da-da-dum

Or would you keep on risking your live just to save one

I don't reach out, it's pitiful to get fake love

I know how to be alone

This is what I came from

Tell if you found a cure for sadness would you take one

Or would you keep on risking your life just to save one

Martyrdom