Not Ok Lyrics

I'm not okay

But don't know what to say

I'd tell you

If I had to

Not okay

And I can't stay this way

If I knew how to

Cause this just won't do

Spent days in my room alone

Spent days by myself

Weeks since I had a better thought

Months since I was awake

Don't remember how it was

To be alive in this world

Spent years without anyone knowing

The lack of growth I have learned

And I spend my days dreaming of the past

Hoping retroactive change can make it last

But I found nothing so far to help me make it work

Remain concerned

I'm not okay

But don't know what to say

I'd tell you

If I had to

Not okay

And I can't stay this way

If I knew how to

Cause this just won't do

Why would I try to tell

Why would I risk it

Rather be alone in hell

Than go and solicit

But the days are stretching out

And I can't make it anywhere

I can't get me to turnabout

So I guess I'll stay right here

And I spend my days thinking of the past

Knowing retroactive change won't make it last

'Cause I found nothing so far to help me make it work

Remain concerned

I'm not okay

But don't know what to say

I'd tell you

If I had to

Not okay

And I can't stay this way

If I knew how to

Cause this just won't do

It's come down to the wire

Gotta make a decision

Too young to retire

Or I'll take 'em down with me

It's come down to the wire

I don't know how many times

Maybe someone can help me out

To adhere to their designs

And I'm trying to move on from visions past

Holding on to fleeting moments to make them last

And maybe they can help me make it work

I'm unaffirmed

I'm not okay

But don't know what to say

I'd tell you

If I had to

Not okay

And I can't stay this way

If I knew how to

Cause this just won't do

I'm not okay

And don't know what to say

I'll tell you

Cause now I have to